If I lose it, don't judge me.

Boxed in. Locked in time. If I kick down the walls. I'll see the sun. Hear the birds. Feel the warmth. But I can't escape this room. I can knock down the walls and tear down the roof. But I can't escape this state I'm in. The walls are invisible and I can't find them. I can't touch them or feel them. They stretch out forever. I can't see their end. So I sit in this glass place alone. I can't get out and he can't get in. Maybe I was destined to be here. Locked in time.

Pick up your feet, son.

I'm sad to announce that I may be hearing less from the love interest. He's starting a new school tomorrow which means harder work, longer days and less free time. And that will be used up by sleeping and studying.  I'm super bummed because as the time goes by, the harder all this waiting gets.

I may be on the verge of crying all the time....but I'm going to keep pushing on. I wish all the lies people told me about time "flying by" would magically come true. Because time is dragging it's heavy feet...

 On a lighter note.

My brother is getting married. Tomorrow.
I can't believe it.
My big (younger) brother is grown up. He's flown the nest and is moving up in the world. I'm so proud of him. He's such an amazing young man and he's so great. His almostwife is the luckiest woman in the world.  Hooray for weddings and new families and new steps in life.

Well. That's all. I've got a migraine brewing.
I hope time picks up it's feet and starts running....I'm ready to see the love interest. And I hope it drags tomorrow for the brother and the little bride...and that it's super special.
Cheers! xo

At night I sometimes get sad.

But after a while I remember that waiting is worth it. And that I'm very lucky and blessed.

And that everything is going to be okay.

xo

P.S. Super duper duper jealous of that hair. Please, head, grow long hair. Please.

Sometimes tears are good for you.

The sushine today is too.  I could use a good quality hug right now. But the sun rays will do for now.
Cheers. xo

Still wishing for the beach...

Style Crush.

Maxi Dresses. I can't get enough. I'm on the verge of obsessed. I've searched the web for hours trying to find one that will drag on the floor for an affordable price...still searching...

xo

Dreaming...

counting down...

Tentatively forty-nine days 'til I see the love interest again. We're almost there! Right?

We've been having quality skype dates lately, and it's been great. Almost like we're really hanging out. Almost.

I'm watching Aladin right now. Thanks for the classics, ABC Family.

Hope your sunday is going splendid. 

Sorry for the dull posts as of late. I'll try and get my thoughts running high speed again soon. I'm enjoying doing less right now.
Cheers! xo